I'm a Terrible Person

I'm a terrible person. There are a variety of reasons for this.

I didn't exercise yesterday like I promised myself I would.

I brought a giant bag of Cheese-Itz to work with and have been eating them all morning.

I had to call my husband and ask him his unit number, etc. because I was filling out a form that asked or it and I couldn't come up with something to be there to save my soul.

It's my last day at WV and I'm blogging. Yes, I'm that bored.

I checked Facebook this morning instead of reading my Bible for 10 minutes.

And when given the opportunity to shine the light of Christ to a very needy coworker I totally blew it.

There's nothing like a Facebook argument on your wall to generate drama and a certain level of public attention. The issue was with a certain young coworker who has caused more than her share of drama since I met her. She has a variety of very big attitude problems with I could spell out here, but won't, except to say that she has a major problem with authority to the point where she just doesn't want to do what she's told or what is her responsibility. This has made her a terrible employee. She just doesn't do her job and everyone else has to pick up the slack.

The Facebook exchange:

Employee: lol so to be very honest you can quit pretending you like me now =]

Me: I don't know how to respond to a comment like that because if I say I do like you as a person you'll say I'm lying .....

Employee: idk just from everything ive heard that youve said about me pretty much since youve been here makes me wonder how you can be so nice to me to my face

Me: I think you are not the greatest employee. I do not dislike you as a person! Theres a big difference

Employee: ok


Wow.

I couldn't deny saying that I think she doesn't do her job -- in fact, is terrible at it. I am ashamed to say that I can't deny talking to other employees about this, not just to our boss (which I feel is an appropriate person to talk to). I have told the employee that she's not doing what she needs to do ... so we can put one point in the "did the right thing in this instance" category ...

But everything else was wrong.

I don't feel badly about this because I am sad that she doesn't like me anymore. Frankly, I can do without the affection of a misbehaving teenager. But I AM sad that this has destroyed any hope of getting her to love Jesus.

Sometimes I doubt the wisdom of giving humans the job of spreading the gospel. Since so much counts on how we act it just seems like a bad plan considering that I am a terrible person.