It's not like I didn't already KNOW all of that information ... it's that when it's said withh such finality, it seems more real, even though it's not.
What I mean by all of this is, we still don't know anything. But Luke did say something today like "I could be leaving in early May."
Which, you know, was not new information. But when he SAYS it ... yeah. It seems like new information.
And therefore I am rather upset. And tired. And I don't feel good. And I kind of want to curl up in the fetal position on my bed.
And really, it's because of the whole baby thing. Because if he leaves in early May and the baby is due in late April maybe the baby will not be here yet ... and I really, REALLY cannot push a giant human out of my person without him there. I simply canNOT do it. And that's upsetting.
I did get to talk to Luke for over an hour today. And he's still planning on coming back Thursday.